day twelve

someone once told me that to get the things you really want in life, you have to stop wanting them. i suppose that i can see the logic, but i can also state that it is very hard to not want the things you desire. i suppose being content with the lack of them is what was really meant in all of that. though, when you have an idea or at worst, the absolute knowledge of the things your missing, places you should be, and people you want, it is near impossible to be content in their absence.

i haven't had coffee in twelve days now and it is quite a tragedy to be trapped inside on such a beautiful afternoon.

peace

there are things in life that just cant be beat.
trying to make the car fly on a late night drive down an empty highway, all that wind pushing against your hand, blowing through your hair, singing songs at the top of your lungs.
that is definitly one of those moments.

in those moments i feel alive.
i can conquer the world.
anything is possible.

<3 phoenix

1901

sick sickly death

the enjoyments of running a fever while being at work.
the delusion caused by raised temperature and tylenol severe cold.
tooken, taked, a giraffe's tail, troyism's.
walking around on the metal grates. something i'd never contemplate in my right mind.
a dreary haze of never ending hours.
contemplating what good can come of a proclamation if it is laced in vagueness and ambiguity. though i suppose i'm as guilty as the next with such tactics.
though i've always appreciated, not so much a grand-proclamation, but a err-free and straight forward statement, because if you leave room for the unknown it will most likely remain just that . . . . unknown.
other than that, questioning why it is one petticoat lane always smells of tostino's pizza's and why people near the 10th and main bus stop always want to yell things at you.
spent the day flooding my ears with everything all the time because i have a terrible habit of listening to records on repeat, for hours and days and weeks.
it's nearly summer. wishing for road trips and late nights and picnics. having to teach myself french. planning to spend ample time reading and watching films and trying my hardest to catch up on all the life i've missed out on the past couple years.
hoping to make it to worlds of fun this summer, wanting to play on swings at the park, wanting my hair to grow longer, and wanting to find some place to swim. oh, and of course wishing for this too:

summer

sure of it

i believe there is this time in the future where everything will make sense.
i cannot wait for that day.

one day . . . .

incredible

Northern Lights from Norway Time lapse in HD from gianni tumino on Vimeo.

please

3rd date

yahoo.com suggests that i find a sexy third date outfit.
i don't think that yahoo.com understands my problem.

maturity

"Maturity is a bitter disappointment for which no remedy exists, unless laughter can be said to remedy anything."
-Vonnegut was a wise man.