my life feels forever thrown off course due to a fluke in timing.
this is unfortunate since i cannot thrive on mediocrity.
for me, intensity is key.
in fact, it is the only way.
everything seems just to be a clouded reflection of the way it ought to be.
and, as i am someone who is a kin to cleanliness, this is completely unacceptable.
if i do not feel that passion i know myself to be capable of, then it's just not good enough.
plain and simple.
i either need to find missouri contentment or i need the presence of mountains and ocean on the Eastern seashore.
right now these seem like the only possible answers.
