stress

i'm having a stressful day. i'm frustrated with life. some days i curse myself for not having the courage to pursue my life when i was younger. it's difficult being 26, trying to go to school, work a full time adult job, and have a life. i work at a job that steals all of the hours of my life 5 days a week. while it affords me to have the money to live it doesn't afford me the time. attempting to squeeze your life into the hours of 6 to 10 is nearly impossible. sleep gets sacrificed, friends ignored, homework put aside. when am i suppose to have time for me? time to do the things i need to do? time to just sit and read a book? all the time everyone else seems to have. by the time i get home and eat dinner, it's nearly time for bed.

i never feel as if i can relax. there is always something else i need to be doing, someone else to see, someone to call. i'm envious of people who go to school full time, work part time, and actually have time to do their homework and see their friends and live their life. i want to have to opportunity to finish school so i can continue on with my life. which is yet another ailing problem on my mind.

i have four hours of time every night to fit my life into and the looming near future to be pondering what to do with.

stress.